mind..

read my mind...haha

actually i've got sumting in my mind rite now..im currently wanted 2 make a blog selling used n brand new things..but im still thinking da pros n cons of it..

thinking about wat 2 sell..im still try 2 figure out about da things im gonna sell..

50/50

juz wait n c

sunburn..T_T

thats wat u get when u came back from krabi..hahaha sunburn owhhh en.burn tq for da colour..hahah tp aku x kesah coz da trip wat superb..

i jz got backed from thai.went there for 5 days..1st we went 2 hat yai then we went 2 krabi..da experience was far more than wonderful ceewahh..sumpah best.. our trip-- 5 cars + 5 big bike from my father's bikers club..

our group members came from around asia..malaysian (ofcoz) + bruneian+ singaporean.....

upload da picx later...

nak mintak donation lar..

drolling over this thing now!! next year gotta buy it..

some1 out there yg sgt generous dr Oprah..plis menderma kpd aku..utk memeli i-pod touch, gadjet yg very da superb ini..huummmm plis plis da buat muker kucing nih...


p/s: still drolling till now..

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wat did u want..or da most sopan way 2 pronounce was aper ko nk hah??!

eeee...geram nyer..

i really really really don understand lar wat he's trying 2 do n wat he really want from me...

its juz felt like playing see saw wit him..sometimes im up sometime im down..he could change my emotion juz like a finger snap..sighed~!!

im realy tired of it,but i cannot run from it..

owh God pliz make my suffering end a.s.a.p....

i sometimes felt like its better if i sleep for a very long time, then wake up in my wedding day..soo dat i don have to faced this stupid n painful feeling of fallin in lurve...

aku yg byk raser..

aku x sure..

aku xselesa..

aku confused..

aku boley jd gler..

aku nk lupekan sume..

aku nk hepy..

aku nk ilangkan kau..

jgn kacau aku..

leave me alone..

stop buat aku sedey..

im tired of all this unsure n unpredictable bullshit..

aku nk mcm yg derang rase..

aku nk..

tp bile time aku..??

aku malu ngn org lain..

aku nk tahu kenapa ko bole relax mcm tu..

aku da makin tua..

im too old for all this rubbish..

im need a secure things..

aku da luah..

aku nangis lg..

aku makin bowdo..

aku makin tired..

it is unexplainable feelings..

makin byk aku dream, makin jauh hope aku..

aku da makin stress..

da makin jauh..

da makin sakit..

aku nk settle sumenye..

tp aku xmampu..

bia aku simpan sume ni sampai (unwritten).........

god give all of the patience..

OMG...i didnt knoe wat happen to me yesterday n da day b4 it...

ok da story goes like this..

on my way to my new house which is located onnn tuuttt tuttt...i got a text message from the person that i've tried all my life 2 forget..yes, Arifth, Dont- want-me-no-more-broke-my-heart-I-know-he-wasn't-right-for-but-it-still-hurt-Arifth. My stomach dropped, my hand shaking to nervous to open that damn message..hurmmm this is wat he said hi u...

WTF...

u hurt me then u act like nothing happen,hey come on larr..go to hell n may u burn in hell..i hope i reply that..

but then this is wat i reply, hey hi 2 u 2... aper nk jd ko ni nabila...wake up wake up!!! earth 2 nabila...

aku tahu aku bowdo n i still doing da stupid mistake again n again...

for 1 n half day i text with him like i used to do when im stil in da relationship wit him.. but then on yesterday evening, i said to him that i need to be clearer about his feeling 2 me..n i also said that when ex's text with 1 another,1 of us will going to hurt again n clearly da person that hurt da most 4 da 2nd time was me...me all alone...hurmmm

this were his answer, he ashamed of wat he done 2 me n my family, n he dont want to hurt me anymore..n he said if there is some other guy wants me just go, n dont wait 4 him...ko ingt ko hero hindustan ker...aadoiii saba je lar...

easy 4 him 2 said, im da 1 whose feeling all of his shit..

i dont noe wat 2 do n wat 2 said...wat should i do...thre will be other guy 4 me???

raye dam aji..

hahaha raye aji like always in perak wuhuuu!! aku suker...everybody gets 2 gather except my 2 "derhaka" uncle (hello, ever1 have their own family affairs rite)...n acu...yes acu!! was planning to suprise atok by saying that she didnot came back 4 rayer but will arrive sebelom subuh kate nyer.. the result of ke "salt tian" mulut nyer, dier x dpt juga balik kg becoz of her house was being robed that nite..siannn acu, everything!i meant everything was gone...its ok acu mayb Allah nk test u n hopefuly u dpt hikmah Nya yg lebih besar after dis...aminnn.....

rayer morning...

wake up in the crack of dawn (kunun nyer tp kalo ikut real time aku di kire bgn lambat) coz sumer org da g smyg rayer aku jer yg tinggal...

after they got backed from masjid, we having breakfast together..rendang landak seriously, im not kidding....

nite of rayer

lepak reramai gosipppp...gosip...tgk tb sesamer...

midnite of rayer...

mencabutkan diri with da cousin2 watching midnite movie.."Ninja Assasin".. the movie was ok still think worth of money to paid 4 da ticket..but the blood in the movie was not convincing enuff..da blood was soo cair n juz like water from tap..hahaha x logicccc!! nevertheless, rain acting was quite cool n his english was ok 4 a korean...siap slang lg..tp dier byk action than talking..

the day after raye

wake up a bit late...having breakfast n follow ude g sight seeing..ahaha konon..
firstly, we're planning 2 go 2 karaoke but then all the karok place was closed..wat da hell!!
cewahh..
then we planned 2 wanet 4 bowling...huhu then off we go, haha having a great time..
later that nite, 1 whole family want there to start a "MAIMUNAH'S FAMILY BOWLING TOURNAMENT" hahaha.. n the winner was pak ude,2nd place nana n da 3rd was makteh...i was to awesome(barney's stail wait 4 it) 2 b on da top 3..hahaha..

ok there goes my perfectly unplanned schedule for da hari rayer dam aji.. i was soo gratefull to belong to this lovingly awesome family..aminnnn

its been a while...

yupp...its been a while i didnt update this blog of mine...

hurmmm simply bcoz i was soooo damn bz with final exam n attending a briefing bout my cumink internship..n thats da reason y, i going bek home late than everyone...

currently, in home (manjung) n still resting my flabby tummy from the dinner i had juzt now...yummy seafood..while in cllge was like in prison only chickn n ikan keli...ahahahha

n fyi, im juz arrive from kuantan around 6 p.m....huhu n 2 b honest i have started to mish them olready :(( sobbbb...sobb..

last nite was our last nite 2gether+ mis sara bufday celbration...fun!! gonna stick a post it in my memory 4eva...the best frens eva n da best lcturer eva....

Godd...i couldn believe it, that im saying this things...

i think im gonna mish KPM!!!!!!!

hope u guys (my collgemate) feelin da same things like i did...

tata from now.....

p/s i will upload da pic later

current activity..

• focusing on coming exam(hahaha i wish 4)
• focusing a documentary title the Arriving of Anti-christ ---gain a lot of new knowledge and information about wat the world has become now...sighhh~!! dunno wat can i do to contribute to prevent the coming of Anti Christ..its all about mental control..
• thinking about my internship next year on 11.jan 2010...nervous
• thinking about where to futher my study after this???
• thinking about family...huhuhu
• thinking about my future bf...who noe who could it b???

may be UUU....ahahhaha

btw,, did u knoe that Osama b Laden is an CIA Asset a.k.a. Tim Osman(google it)

cannot online..

damn shit..thats all i could say...

im currently using Adini's laptop to online rite now..dunno y, my laptop n fara's laptop cannot open a single web even though we could connect to the network...sigh~!!.. credit to adini for letting me to check my email n facebook...huhu tata from now..fara got to used his laptop now...daaa

i love this ads...

This is the new ads 4 Fight Againts Breast Cancer..its a creative ways to warn womens out there about this Danger Plaque...huhu so start doing to responsible job now..do check your boobies..it could save your life...

so have you check yours????

im p.d.a rite now...

hurmmm im really do..

da reason why im p.d.a(preety damn angry):

* im still searching things for my cumink dinner

*i have to present my website to madam next week

*i have marketing management this next week also..

*the blog owner still did not reply my email whether she still got the belt or not?????? hello reply lar!!

juz feel like college

hahaha shut up n sit back juz looked at our crazy mazy picx......

hard..so hard..

hermm..its so hard for me to update my blog now since i am in college..hard to get connection..bla..bla..bla...tired n bored..

final juz around da corner but im stil not start study yet.juz keep on watching Victoria Secret Fashion Show.. what happen to u Nabila?...

new news in me..

my mum juz been promoted as headmistress n we have to moved to "tempat jin Bertendang" which is in GRIKKKKK!!!!! dunno what to do...hurmmm luckily they didnt sell our house in Manjung since im going for internship next year...fuhhhhh fuhhhh what a relief..huhu

nothing much i will update this blog later..c ya....

btw, im juz finish watching gossip girl season 2..hurmmm not bad...

am i a misguided ghost?

I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no road
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles

Well Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
A broken heart and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not, Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

cursing n swearing more than before

hahahaha

its nearly 7.30 am..my ride gonna arrived at Seri Manjung terminal around 7.30 ish...

sigh....i don wan to go back to my cell(which is my room) n to da prison (KPM)..but i have to since next semester was my last year i dont have to stay in KPM anymore..wee~! just keep thinking about it (siok nyer).. adoi at da same time aku da terbayang the enviroment when i am on da bus..sigh again..there will be mat indon, mat bangla n many other "overseas mamat" .. hahaha anyway i will be rarely online or update this blog since i have to go to cafe to get the network n i am very lazy to go there.. so soo long blog n so long suckerssss..ahahahahah

cursing n swearing..

wat a hot hulk..

my mouth was bz cursing n swearing rite now...

who know about the bloody unwanted solicitations!!!

"bangkai" messing with my my half almost done essay. huarghhhhhhhhhhhh im turning green rite now.

don noe how to relate the words with my essay..hurmmmmm !@#%$^%#!

loitering..

aiyoooo..after lunch im still in front of laptop online..rite now im busy downloading paramore new album- brand new eyes and im still not started working on my essay..hahaha aiyo what happen to me??maybe there is a "BIG L" on my forehead not for loser but LAZY!!

earth to nabilla..wakeup do ur assignment..!!!!!!

csc oh csc...

ohhh essay

oh no!!! i still didn't finish my csc essay about global communities..hemmmm..... all the information about it i 've collected but still not started to write yet..maybe after my lunch i will start doing it..hopefully aminnn..luckily, it just a 400 words essay..fuhhhh...the heppy part is, im not coming to class tomorrow huhu coz my bus was tomorrow on 7.30 am bcause the ticket was sold out.. i don mind at all..frankly speaking i was HEPPY with it...weeeee~!

hari raye hectic..

HALF OF MY FAMILY

FUNNY FACES EVERYONE

IN TOK MOK'S HOUSE

OUR CONVOI

AYAHANDA'S HOUSE

HILUX'S MODEL

OPEN SESAME

it was da best raye ever been celebrated(over nampak)..ahhaha.. everyone was backed in atok's house on the second day of raye..we(my family,ude's family n acu's family) purposely planned not to came backed on first day of raya(since they're all celebrated it on rheir in laws house) so that we all could spend days in atok's house..huhu soooo clever ahh..my fmily arrived Perak(which is Lekir,hometown) around 9p.m ish...when we got there everyone was already there, the kids were busy playing with bunga api + mercun while the "oldies" hahaha gathering in font of atok's chatting and gossiping between each other since this is the only time we could met all families(soo many things need to catch up between us) while eating kuih raye..

on the third raye--- we all "convoi" with 6 cars all together went to Malim Nawar (tok mok's house, my late nenek's cousin)..this was the first time i met him..he made chicken curry n tosei especially for our visited...it was soo damn delicious, fingers lickin good.huhu then we went to Kampar, which was my previous hometown before atok moved to Lekir..so many childhood memories there. XD we visit ayahanda's house(atok long lost friend).. after that we went to my mak ngah's house n then backed to Lekir around 11p.m...it was a tiring hari raye visit but all the day we went through was priceless..huhu its hrd to gather all families together since they're busy with their life now..

ohhh ohhh ohhh balik kampung

THIS IS MY HOMETOWN IN MELACCA

im going back to malacca tommorow morning, must be so tired but it will all dissappeared when i reach there huhu i cant wait to make 'kuih raye' with my aunts n watch my uncle making 'lemang'..buttt i cannot online for couple of days because there is no internet connection there and i want to concentrate on raye..ahahah (sound serious rite)..anyway i will write my entry as soon as i came backed..muahhh love u guys.. n SELAMAT HARI RAYA again..xoxo XD

break fasting + breaking da laws

BREAKFASTING

This is the first time im breaking the college laws hahaha im can be count as nerd because even now im in semester five, im still afraid to break the laws tht stated-cannot came back late before 6 p.m..

im having a good time though..huhu its was an unforgetable memory for me n i tink for them also..its still fresh in my memory how we getting warning for one guys whose in his thirty,to slow down our voice in the restaurant..we cant help because of this one stupid joke mention by pendek (the jokes cannot be stated here)..haahahahahahha soo funnyyyy.. hopefully our plan for dinner outside together again in the week after we came back from raye holiday will accomplish..

i also want to take this chances to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYER MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN to madam susilawati,frens n family...

ibu...im coming home dis wednesday!!!

huhu the best thing ever.. im going back to my home town dis coimg wednesday for hari raye holiday... my ride was on 6pm...i must be really damn tired to waited for the bus.. but its all doesnt matter as long i got to celebrate rayer with my fmly..huhuhu im realy excited thinking about the rayer enviroment...the food, new clothes, n most important "DUIT RAYER"..huhu realy cant wait..but this coming rayer i'll have to celebrate it without my atok...hurmmmmm....

THINGS DAT REALLY BRING ME DOWN WEN I TURNED 20!!!

• the first worst things (which happened couple of days after my bufday)
  my bf who i known for 3 years n i hook up for 1 years finally dumped me!!can u imagine that??? da best bufday present ever i've got from sum1 that im totally in lurve 2.....hahahahah (im so blind)..im really in a heart broken mood for 1 month, n frankly speaking im stil thinking about him till dis day..da reason why i broke off with him let be a mystery among both of us only..n its clearly not bcoz of third person(like u guys have in ur mind rite now)huhu........
  
  


• the worst things (which happened a few weeks after my bufday)
  my atok who in my father side passed away on 8th August 2009 on 4pm ish..it was da most most most most sad things.it really hard 2 describe in words ;((
  now i dont have 'atoks' in both side my abah n my ibu side..just left the 'neneks'... now im appreciate them better than before..mayb bcoz im currently not prepare to loose neneks this time..huhuhu i misss u neneks...

can u imagine being in my shoe?????? its really devastating n break me apart....

drugs..scandals..shoping---> really cannot cure my broken hearts when it happened..its true what people said only time can cure broken heart....

p/s--- >my frens n family really supporting n stood up for me..n im very(million very) touched by them..

n its still left a pieces in my heart...n maybe this is a test from above, to shows that He still love me even i've made soo many sins in my life. n hopely this ramadhan will make me become a better person in every aspects..aminnnnnn

my very 1st entry

MYSELF BLA..BLA..BLA..

this is da very 1st time, i wrote this post...


huhu..im a bit awkward at first n mayb it will become better in da next coming post..





im gonna start this blog by telling about myself...hope u guys bear 2 read it....





my name is Nabila Razak..
people called me belle..
rite now im persuing my diploma in Mara Professional College in Indera Mahkota Pahang n this is my final semester before im going for practical next semester on january 2010..(cant wait actually bcoz im thinking about the paid i will get monthly from the company)hahahaha...

rite now im in college n staying in the hostel that been provided by college room number 01-12...(stop by if u want)..
my real home was in Perak...
it is a new developing town whith a lot of residentials...u will shock when u see it..im not joking it was crowded with residentials there were 3c,2g,3a,2a,1c,3f.even i got lost in it..

im currently turning 20..
its a big number to me n bring a lot of new n unexpected changes in my life...

a lot of things happen 2 me when im turning to this age...

n there are 2 unforgetable memories that i will not forget till the day i die..(serious >;0)..